It can only go up from here

It's been a while yes. I'm still Jenny and I still do things...BUT  a lot has happened.

 I got another dog. Her name is LuLu and she is CRAZY.

She has real issues. To start, she hates strangers. We can't even go out for walks because she will bark at anything and everything that moves. She also has separation anxiety which also results in endless barking. Overall, she's pretty handicapped in dog standards but I love her...it is what it is.

I'm also engaged! I can't believe I finally managed to trick someone into marring me.

and I stand true to my words...I'm not doing those pinterest stuff. I love my fiancé and I adore his family so I look forward to the rest of my life. 

Growing up is a weird feeling. I feel like I've not grown since I've left high school and I'm still in that "young and irresponsible" phase. However, almost everyone I knew from high school is married, getting married, having kids, or having a kick ass career. Then there's me....never truly independent, been in school all my life, and mooching off my parents. Ugh I'm one of those losers who still lives in their parents' basement but minus the basement.
  

Pinterest rant

I regret going on pinterest. I should've never taken my friend's advice of looking for recipes there.

Like, the amount of wedding planning stuff is ridiculous. I go there looking for a good lunch recipe and walked away with like 50 ideas for flower center pieces. All that planning and anticipation for one day and when it's over what do you do with your lives?!

Oh yea move on to stupid maternity pictures and baby photo shoots.

and THEN you can spend your days planning children activities such as making playdo out of shit instead of just buying them. Or you can plan themed birthday parties for said children and once they grow up and no longer need you, you can spend your days refurbishing old ass furniture and making decoration out of garbage.

Seriously it's a nightmare and I'm not even a feminist. Is this how mundane life is for women?

 yes...consider marriage for the sake of invitations

and dont just look at dresses for yourself. Also plan for bridesmaids and flower girls

These are just a FEW images off ONE page on the POPULAR posts. The rest I'm too lazy to screencap and crop.

Holy shit ladies can we ascend beyond this?! I'm not saying we need to burn our bras and live a life of solitude but can our lives NOT revolve around making a wreath for every holiday and hoping that our children never grow up because then we wouldn't have a purpose?!

I don't even know how to conclude this. /endrant

hair and other things

I have a problem okay, I hold on to things. I hate change. I haven't had a haircut in 5 years because I'm deathly afraid of the hairdresser messing shit up.

My hair was so long it became such a nuance to maintain it. You wouldn't believe how fast I go through bottles of conditioner. Finally I convinced myself to cut it.

Okay, instant regret. I guess I just don't have the mentality that says "oh it's just hair, it'll grow back". Suddenly I realized 5 years is a very long time! When you have something for that long it really becomes a part of you (as stupid as this sound...because hair is actually a part of you =____=)

Anyways this post really isn't about hair. 

My boyfriend went to China for a month and I miss him D:< like hair, he's been with me for a long time and I just realized how much I'm dependent on him. I tried to clean up the apartment today and realized I didn't even know where the garbage shoot is.

Also regrettably I couldn't donate any of my hair because it's been dyed too many times...I guess I could've collected it and made extensions for myself but that seems a little weird. Like a snake shedding its skin and then wearing it like a skin coat.

happy birthday Canada!!

Canada turned 146 this Monday on July 1st! To celebrate we went to a pick-your-own farm (almost all things are closed for the national holiday).

 

all natural no herbicide..you can see the weeds growing with the berries lol

my brother,showcasing his stash(his meager,pathetic stash)

we were super lucky to catch the last field of new potatoes being unearthed. Also snagged some fresh peas and made an awesome chicken noodle soup for lunch.

After lunch we headed out to Bluffers park which is a large park above the cliffs of lake Ontario. The view was so worth the risk of falling to our deaths (which has happened to people unfortunately..it's a steep drop).

Sitting by the cliff with the wind blowing at my skirt. Someone behind me was singing and playing a guitar. I felt magical xD. 

There was a community BBQ and fireworks event for the day. Live music, free food and drinks, games and entertainment for the kids, it was wonderful and my family makes a point to go every year.

 *Bonus picture. The Toronto police playing volleyball with children <3

angry birthing rant part 2

This shit

this is the kind of shit I was talking about.

Because clearly if the woman does not have a painful birth she does not love her children. 

For mothers who has to have a c-section, make sure to fracture 20 bones at the same time sometime soon or else your child will grow up without maternal love and sacrifice.

And fathers too...fathers don't love their children because they skip out on labor all together. 

what the actual fuck.

Since when is pain synonymous with love?!



ugh...my whole day's ruined now

It was my birthday...I'd like to stop aging now :(

I went to pickle barrel over the weekend and ordered a milkshake. I was wondering why the price for mine was significantly higher than my boyfriend's until it came and was the size of my head =_____=

Lack of updates on "Jenny does things" because Jenny hasn't been doing anything

 A friend of mine had a layover at Osaka airport and during the short amount of time he had between exchanging his boarding pass and redirecting his luggage, he managed to buy souvenirs. He said all he had time for was to dash into the store, grab whatever he saw on display, and pay. He didn't even know what he bought.

Upon further inspection, one is chestnut mochi and the other is strawberry daifuku. The packaging is so pretty I felt like I was destroying art by opening it.

It was super sweet and really soft. I didn't have the heart to open the daifuku yet...maybe another day~

Angry rant: currect way of birthing a baby?

My favorite blogger Xiaxue just posted her birthing video and I am truly grateful because it offered me an insight on non-natural birth. 

There's such a high value placed on natural birth and recently years, water birth and at home birth are becoming increasing popular. All of these "back to nature" pseudo science crap has been giving me anxiety for years. 

I was causally googling alternatives to natural birth for women with high labor anxieties and almost punched out my laptop because I was so angry. All the women who reply say something like "Just do natural, it's so much better for the baby. I'm only 5'3 and I gave birth to my 8 pound baby with NO painkillers". Everyone mentioned that they didn't take any painkillers...like good for you? You're a GOOD mom because you suffered. Your baby's health is contingent on the degree of pain you experienced. Your kid will grow up with a higher IQ because it was a natural born baby. Them c-section babies automatically get IQ points deducted because they didn't get squeezed out of a birth canal.

Xiaxue herself had a c-section and was on laughing gas. The birth of her baby was easy and smooth; most of all it was pretty painless. However, the comments asking her why she didn't have a natural birth was overwhelming. Why does she have to EXPLAIN her choices? 

Because she did her makeup for that day, people also called her vain. One commenter even said "it's the one day that it's okay to look like a mess". What the serious hell?! Not only is the woman SUPPOSE to suffer, but she has to LOOK like she suffered? And somehow it is not okay to look like a mess any other time in her life?!

(╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻

I realize that there are real and serious differences between the two choices but the issue isn't in the process itself but in how these options are perceived. One is deemed a great and noble sacrifice and the other, a cowardly act of selfishness. This needs to change.  

Not so warm

The sun was out and it's already the middle of May. My room was uncomfortably warm and stuffy so I thought It must be nice outside today! Maybe even nice enough to sit on outside at a restaurant and enjoy patio weather?

No of course not. It was like three degrees outside =_____= So we had to sit inside the dark dinning room of Jack Astors. Whatever, I went there for the sweet potato fries anyways.

I love their sweet potato fries. They're light and sweet on the inside and crispy on the outside with just a little bit of sea salt dusted. I don't care for the dipping sauce though...it's some kind of ranch I think.

The calamari wasn't that good this time. The batter was kind of falling off.

 

I really want to sit outside next time >__<

Good morning

This morning started gloomy and stuffy thanks to an upcoming storm. I stopped by Tim Hortons to grab breakfast and before I even entered the building, my morning got a little bit brighter.

I grabbed the door for the lady behind me and she tried to hold the next door for me while a guy coming out held it for the both of us. It was like a round of door roulette .

I couldn't help but laugh and say "how Canadian of us" and the guy smiled and said "exactly". This minute of silly politeness probably brightened all our mornings.

 

maple oatmeal with steeped tea and a hash brown